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subhanallahhhh......allahu akbarr......
how hard it is to be patient...being patient from long, long waiting....it's almost 5 months she's known.ss..


tonight she got massege asking about her activity.hes already knew that she has my own blog.back to her topic yesterday. . ...being patient...people say being patient means to sustain yourself from grown, angry, hurt yourself......how long else she must be patient waiting for someone that she really wish.....


this morning IT students to be were having a test and i was one of watchers. only a few staff came to school. there's something happen, they always ask why only a few ataff involved in IT registration..it always must be jeleous among the staff...mmhhh... that's lfe in my workplace. u know three days ago i met my old friend...ohh gee he looks so nice. he in fact got promoted in his company.....not worked in sales department anymore but better department....


today is the second day of the third year students' final semester test. i got twice chances to watch the students. we didnt teach this afternoon. it was unforgettable moments for stelk staff and teachers 'coz they already have ISO 9001:2008 certificate. it means that its status is now different...but they won't forgeet or be dissolved with that world certificate. yeah...they have to do the best for getting the vision "The Students' succcess is Our Pride". the success of a school is shown on customer satisffaction.......

two days ago she wrote messege to him asking about how he was..he's in fact busy with his job, had no time to sms, didn't want to be disturbed. till tonight she never send him sms and vice versa. you know...all day long she feels something, she misses him very much..she feels something strange inside. everytime she misses him..warm blood flow in her nerve. she doesn't know why this always happens to her..she really misses him so much...she really misses meeting him soon....how long else????????????????
she sometimes wonders if he is really serious or just fooling her around....OO..rabb..help her......


she's so happy today..everything smiles at her, moroever she's got sms from her habibiii......tonight she wishes she would get up again and did tahajjud like before...she really needs it in this life...everything happens in this world as Allah SWT has disposed it....


she feels so tired after working all day long...she doesn't want to do this for the rest of her life..she really wanna do something that make her stay domestic..not go out of earning for money..but..?????? this afternoon she was a little bit angry with her students..lately they always disobey the rule..she heard one of them said that they wanted to do the new revolution by opposing the school regulation...so she told them it's nothing...they won't get anything by doing so..even the institution will ask them to move to another school..


two days ago one of the teachers complained to her. the fee he must pay for math course is so high. he felt 30%'s not fair....n wanted her to reduce it.....this afternoon she couldn't stay at school longer as usual. she went home earlier....oh yes,i ever got sms from her hubby..she really misses him and can't wait any longer to see him...get together with him.....oohhh God when could it come true????


since two days ago she knew he was sick, typhoid or fever..ohh rabb help him..when she heard he got typhoid fever she was a little bit shock, it makes her remember her father.. he got typhoid also....o Rabb she really hope he is getting better soon...o Rabb...plz dont take his life...
she always keeps her fingers crossed for his health...may he's feeling healthy like before..


so sad........so sad ......so sadd....he's in fact fooling her around ....he never writes or sends sms or replies her....
why he never told her the truth..why he kept it......why he must hide his real feeling..why he made her wait long....why he didn't tell her that he wouldn't marry her to run this life together..build new life...household....??????????

what's going on with him????
a few days aago he told her he was sick, got typhus fever....and some times ago she called his working place...one who answered her told that he went home...how come???????????? she thinks one who got typhus must bed rest a lot....and he began working again??? doesn't it make any sense?????

no!!....no!!....her heart screamed..what's up????
nno way!!!...she's not guy hunter. she still has self esteem..she's not that kind of girl who always begs guy's love.

no!!....no!!!....she screamed...
keep smiling.....keep up your life....your life must go on..your life is not gonna end that way.....no!!!! you are tough girl!!! life must go on........ he is not the only guy int this world.....there will be another right guy waiting you.....

be patient!!! Allah SWT be with you always... this world is bigger than kellor leaf...
OOoo...Rabb...forgive her....actually she didn't regret anything happen to her but she feels so sad.. so sad....let her be sad...she can't hold tears running down out of her eyes....she can't make herself not cry....plzzzz let tears come out....run...run down hard like water running hard in the river.

OOOooo...world!!! she's now smiling. nobody could make her sad longer and longer........the sorrow is gonna be lost .....washed away by the river.

Being patient is so sweet...and sweet indeed!!! this waiting is so long.........
but Allah's help is so closed....really closed!!!!

Oooo...Rabb..forgive me...she knew everythng now he's telling her a lie....everything lie....nothing's true....

But she feel relieved now after she knew this.....
she be patient with what he's done to her...
let Rabb take revenge for her.....

her patience brings the beauty.....
the beauty.....the relief of heart...waiting something for a better future...!!!!!!

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